i think saying no turns me on more than the money does

i noticed something about myself recently and its actually kind of funny
getting spoiled is nice obviously, but the part that really gets me is when a man asks me for something and i get to decide.
can i buy this
can i go there
can i keep this much
can i treat myself
and sometimes i genuinely just want to say no because i like knowing my answer matters
i like that little pause after. the fact that he could technically do whatever he wants but chooses not to because i said so.
that does way more for me than some random transfer ever could.
maybe im worse than i thought lol